JUNO

I like this picture, I missed my junior prom because I was pregnant. Then I missed my senior prom because I was married taking care of my child.

So I watched the movie Juno. I hadn't seen it up until now because I thought that it wouldn't be realistic at all. I was 16 when I was pregnant. I was afraid that I would get mad at the movie for not showing it how it was.

I really liked the movie. It made me realize just how immature and young I was. I like how Juno had a lot of sarcasm with it. That reminded me a lot of myself. I think this movie really hit home for me. Not really being able to understand that there's a real baby growing, or that you're going to be a mom. I did at some point consider when I was young doing what Juno did. It's something that I would have been happy to do for someone. But, I went thru a lot of difficulties with my pregnancy and ended up being in the hospital for a long time. This created a lot of bonding time. So I knew it would've been too hard for me to let him go.

I like the hamburger phone, it just reminds me of how young she is. The fact that she puts lipstick on before going over to the adopters house because she likes the husband. It's a real kick in the gut when you are 16 and pregnant and realize you can't be doing that. But you're so confused as to what you want in life and who you want to be with. I can also relate with the couple who wanted the baby. How he thought a baby would fix things and make the marriage work better. But then he realized that he didn't even want to be married. And she wanted to be a mother so bad that she overlooked the problems with him.

I was a little emotional after watching the movie. Being pregnant early in life makes me feel as though I have missed out on an exciting time in marriage life. Being excited about planning then waiting till the baby is finally here, and the joys of being ready but completely not ready when the baby has arrived. I have two children. By the time that I think I am ready to have another child, Kobe will be around 11 years old. And I'm not sure I will want to have a baby then. Not to mention whether my husband would want anymore children. I don't regret what happened, but it makes me feel like I've missed out on something important.

LP 12

1. I wrote in my journal a couple of times this week, which helps me get my thoughts cleared. I watched movies that made me laugh, that helps to not worry about things that make me upset. I played Wii games with my family, which also takes my mind off of things that upset me. I did a lot of cooking! That's something that makes me happy. I spend sometimes outside of the house with friends that help me not to get over stressed at home. I went for a walk with my dog that is relaxing. I also went to the humane society and walked a dog, which makes me feel good and helps out the humane society!

2. I did register for my classes and took one more class than last semester.

3. I find the mock interview hard to do. I don't really know where I could go, and how to set it up. I'm thinking it is going to be late because I haven't found where to go. I also broke up with my boyfriend last week. After a year and a half of dating he finally told me that he does not love me. Which is good that he told me now, but sad that the relationship couldn't be saved. I don't regret the last year though, I learned a lot in the relationship and had some great times.

LPN 11

1.My face is telling me that it is stressed.
My eyes are conveying that I am honest, loving and sincere.
I can smile.
My body is usually relaxed.
I try to cover up as much skin as I can.
I use to hate my stretch marks and my scars from surgery I've had, but I can now see them as a uniqueness to myself. I'm different than most. I do not like the acne I have, I see your face as your presenting object. I don't like that mine is not clear.

2. I do not have a weight problem. I don't watch what I eat but I stay very active. I'm still young and think it has a lot to do with it. But I think exercise is a must in keeping your weight under control.

3. Well I need to find a winter sport/activity to stay in shape through the season. I do not like skiing or snowboarding. I'm thinking about snowshoeing. I think that would be fun. I need to start watching what I eat. With chronic pancreatitis I am suppose to be on a low fat diet as well as take enzymes about three times a day. I do not do this very well. It is something I can do, just a matter of getting into routine.

4. Well this week hasn't been the greatest but we'll take a different approach to it.
I made the trip to eau claire safely.
I won in a monopoly game.
My boyfriend did not break up with me when I told him he was stupid.
I got to have my favorite dip. (Buffalo Chicken)
I got a very nice new coat.
I watched the movie "Up," it was cute.

5. My first semester in college is coming to an end and the pressure of it all is quite a bit more than expected. If anything I have learned how to prepare myself next semester more efficiently. I know I need to become more organized but it is a difficult thing for me. I live with my aunt, which is very nice, but having my own place would be much better.
My boyfriend of 1 year is afraid of commitment and it is really starting to get on my nerves.
I don't know if I want to change my program. I really like human services but would like to do something in the medical field as well. I'm terrible at knowing what I want to do. Decisions take a long time for me because I review all options and educate myself on all the possibilities. Which takes a lot out of me.
Oh and I decided that I will not be taking very many online classes anymore. I do like the blogging, however I do much better in a lecture class as far as retaining information.

LPN 9

1. I hate this question. It's as hard to answer as when someone asks me where I see myself in five years. I would definitely get married, live in my own home, spend as much time with my family and children as possible. Oh and I would buy the dachshund I've been wanting and visit New Zealand.

2. Oh boy, another great question. At one point I thought I had. It might still be the same. It's as if you're sitting in a tree, ready to jump down; looking at the ground as a safe place to land. It seems clearer than ever. Then all the sudden the leaves start falling and you can see your landing spot as well. You start to question whether you should jump.

3. "Same thing we do every day Pinky, try to take over the world." -Brain
That came to my head. I hope to change the world by helping troubled people. Helping, educating, and promoting a better way to live will be the main goal. If successful, it will allow a type of prevention. So that the world doesn't just continue in it's constant, negative circle of failure of happiness and peace.

LPN 10

1. I have a hard time knowing what to do with my stress, so I tend to try and ignore it. This affects me physically by being tired a lot, I get pancreatic pain (which is a disease that I have caused by stress), and aches and pains. I'm affected emotionally by just being too emotional about anything and everything. If I get very stressed I'm affected socially with my family and my boyfriend.

2.The four-pronged approach to autonomy can be very effective for stress management. When a person is very stressed their ability to make decisions becomes blurry and unclear. The four-pronged approach helps to slow down the mind and allow the person to make a decision. Often when stressed people allow all stress contributors to become one large problem. This system can break down the stressing problems into smaller "categories" and provide a starting point.

3.It depends entirely on who I am talking with. Most of the time I'm trying to express how I am feeling so I use the Assertive statements. (especially with my bf) But if it is someone I do not know I might use passive statements. I think I need to improve by not being so bitchy at times.

4. One: I got to see my daughter for a few days. Two: I got an awesome grade on two assignments in written comm. Three: I enrolled for my classes. Four: I attended a "Trailer Trash Dinner Theater" as thanksgiving at my mothers, and got to act as a crazy psychic reader who is extremely paranoid. Five: I fixed my laptop.

5. My boyfriend is afraid of commitment. It sucks.