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Nov 30, 2009

JUNO


I like this picture, I missed my junior prom because I was pregnant. Then I missed my senior prom because I was married taking care of my child.

So I watched the movie Juno. I hadn't seen it up until now because I thought that it wouldn't be realistic at all. I was 16 when I was pregnant. I was afraid that I would get mad at the movie for not showing it how it was.

I really liked the movie. It made me realize just how immature and young I was. I like how Juno had a lot of sarcasm with it. That reminded me a lot of myself. I think this movie really hit home for me. Not really being able to understand that there's a real baby growing, or that you're going to be a mom. I did at some point consider when I was young doing what Juno did. It's something that I would have been happy to do for someone. But, I went thru a lot of difficulties with my pregnancy and ended up being in the hospital for a long time. This created a lot of bonding time. So I knew it would've been too hard for me to let him go.

I like the hamburger phone, it just reminds me of how young she is. The fact that she puts lipstick on before going over to the adopters house because she likes the husband. It's a real kick in the gut when you are 16 and pregnant and realize you can't be doing that. But you're so confused as to what you want in life and who you want to be with. I can also relate with the couple who wanted the baby. How he thought a baby would fix things and make the marriage work better. But then he realized that he didn't even want to be married. And she wanted to be a mother so bad that she overlooked the problems with him.

I was a little emotional after watching the movie. Being pregnant early in life makes me feel as though I have missed out on an exciting time in marriage life. Being excited about planning then waiting till the baby is finally here, and the joys of being ready but completely not ready when the baby has arrived. I have two children. By the time that I think I am ready to have another child, Kobe will be around 11 years old. And I'm not sure I will want to have a baby then. Not to mention whether my husband would want anymore children. I don't regret what happened, but it makes me feel like I've missed out on something important.

Nov 27, 2009

LP 12

1. I wrote in my journal a couple of times this week, which helps me get my thoughts cleared. I watched movies that made me laugh, that helps to not worry about things that make me upset. I played Wii games with my family, which also takes my mind off of things that upset me. I did a lot of cooking! That's something that makes me happy. I spend sometimes outside of the house with friends that help me not to get over stressed at home. I went for a walk with my dog that is relaxing. I also went to the humane society and walked a dog, which makes me feel good and helps out the humane society!

2. I did register for my classes and took one more class than last semester.

3. I find the mock interview hard to do. I don't really know where I could go, and how to set it up. I'm thinking it is going to be late because I haven't found where to go. I also broke up with my boyfriend last week. After a year and a half of dating he finally told me that he does not love me. Which is good that he told me now, but sad that the relationship couldn't be saved. I don't regret the last year though, I learned a lot in the relationship and had some great times.

Nov 17, 2009

LPN 11


1.My face is telling me that it is stressed.
My eyes are conveying that I am honest, loving and sincere.
I can smile.
My body is usually relaxed.
I try to cover up as much skin as I can.
I use to hate my stretch marks and my scars from surgery I've had, but I can now see them as a uniqueness to myself. I'm different than most. I do not like the acne I have, I see your face as your presenting object. I don't like that mine is not clear.

2. I do not have a weight problem. I don't watch what I eat but I stay very active. I'm still young and think it has a lot to do with it. But I think exercise is a must in keeping your weight under control.

3. Well I need to find a winter sport/activity to stay in shape through the season. I do not like skiing or snowboarding. I'm thinking about snowshoeing. I think that would be fun. I need to start watching what I eat. With chronic pancreatitis I am suppose to be on a low fat diet as well as take enzymes about three times a day. I do not do this very well. It is something I can do, just a matter of getting into routine.

4. Well this week hasn't been the greatest but we'll take a different approach to it.
I made the trip to eau claire safely.
I won in a monopoly game.
My boyfriend did not break up with me when I told him he was stupid.
I got to have my favorite dip. (Buffalo Chicken)
I got a very nice new coat.
I watched the movie "Up," it was cute.

5. My first semester in college is coming to an end and the pressure of it all is quite a bit more than expected. If anything I have learned how to prepare myself next semester more efficiently. I know I need to become more organized but it is a difficult thing for me. I live with my aunt, which is very nice, but having my own place would be much better.
My boyfriend of 1 year is afraid of commitment and it is really starting to get on my nerves.
I don't know if I want to change my program. I really like human services but would like to do something in the medical field as well. I'm terrible at knowing what I want to do. Decisions take a long time for me because I review all options and educate myself on all the possibilities. Which takes a lot out of me.
Oh and I decided that I will not be taking very many online classes anymore. I do like the blogging, however I do much better in a lecture class as far as retaining information.

LPN 9

1. I hate this question. It's as hard to answer as when someone asks me where I see myself in five years. I would definitely get married, live in my own home, spend as much time with my family and children as possible. Oh and I would buy the dachshund I've been wanting and visit New Zealand.

2. Oh boy, another great question. At one point I thought I had. It might still be the same. It's as if you're sitting in a tree, ready to jump down; looking at the ground as a safe place to land. It seems clearer than ever. Then all the sudden the leaves start falling and you can see your landing spot as well. You start to question whether you should jump.

3. "Same thing we do every day Pinky, try to take over the world." -Brain
That came to my head. I hope to change the world by helping troubled people. Helping, educating, and promoting a better way to live will be the main goal. If successful, it will allow a type of prevention. So that the world doesn't just continue in it's constant, negative circle of failure of happiness and peace.

LPN 10

1. I have a hard time knowing what to do with my stress, so I tend to try and ignore it. This affects me physically by being tired a lot, I get pancreatic pain (which is a disease that I have caused by stress), and aches and pains. I'm affected emotionally by just being too emotional about anything and everything. If I get very stressed I'm affected socially with my family and my boyfriend.

2.The four-pronged approach to autonomy can be very effective for stress management. When a person is very stressed their ability to make decisions becomes blurry and unclear. The four-pronged approach helps to slow down the mind and allow the person to make a decision. Often when stressed people allow all stress contributors to become one large problem. This system can break down the stressing problems into smaller "categories" and provide a starting point.

3.It depends entirely on who I am talking with. Most of the time I'm trying to express how I am feeling so I use the Assertive statements. (especially with my bf) But if it is someone I do not know I might use passive statements. I think I need to improve by not being so bitchy at times.

4. One: I got to see my daughter for a few days. Two: I got an awesome grade on two assignments in written comm. Three: I enrolled for my classes. Four: I attended a "Trailer Trash Dinner Theater" as thanksgiving at my mothers, and got to act as a crazy psychic reader who is extremely paranoid. Five: I fixed my laptop.

5. My boyfriend is afraid of commitment. It sucks.

Oct 28, 2009

LPN 8

1. My personal experience with suicide was first hand. I tried to commmit suicide when I was youger. I also drank pretty heavily. It had become a addictive activity. When i mentioned one thing about not wanting to be alive anymore my ex called the police. They brought me to the crisis center. I had to fill out a incident report and then they threw some scrubs on me took away any and all possesions of mine. It was a very helpful experience. The people who work there try to help you with your mental issues and to help you forget the fact you're in a psychiatric ward. The only professional(ish) experience would be helping my sister when she's attempted to or is wanting to.

2.I think that I have very good writing skills. I can write a great essay and I usually have proper grammer. I think, I could deffenitly improve on my spelling and more in depth of the grammer. I'm sure I can find some website that helps out with that.

3.I think 12 step programs are very benificial to the people who really want to quit. An addcition does just have a flip on and off switch. Most who are addicted to a substence need information on what it's doing to your body, brain and family. Facing the addiction in small steps leading to big steps is a very effective way of quiting. Most who are quitting are worried about the withdrawl. When they think about quitting they see it as this huge problem they have to solve, but if they break it up into smaller peices it may not seem as bad to them.

4. I actually sat down last Friday to look at scheduling classes for next semester. I wantd to take one more class than I did this semester. So that would make 4 in class lectures and one online again. I can't remember exactly which classes I took but I know there was...ATODA, fundamentals in crisis intervention, Ethics in H.S. Human Sexuality, Child and Adolecent behavior, and I would like to take Intro psychology. That would keep my brain very vusy! I am exited about next semester. I think I will do better in it bcause I know a little more about the campus and classes.

Oct 22, 2009

I'm lonely

My boyfriend went to his parents. I'm glad he gets to spend time with his family. He needs it. But, it's been a year, and I'm not sure his parents know about me. Now most people are like that is ridiculous you need to get rid of him. Well my answer is no. For many reasons...
I feel like we know each other on a different level than most. We think a lot of the same things. We laugh at each others stupid jokes. He says I'm too sensitive sometimes, but everyone has their moments. In all he's a wonderful companion. I love being around him, he makes me feel safe, and loved in his own little way.
So I am happy he is spending time with his loved ones but I am jealous. Jealous that they get to be with him, and jealous that it's a whole side of him I don't know. And I'm not alone, I live with my family who loves me. But knowing he isn't at home or close by makes me feel a little empty. It makes me sad.

Lpn 7

1. I would most certainly be able to give information to pregnant teens. In fact, I've thought greatly about going into this field of work. Like an educator, "Parenting classes for teens, and everything else you need to know. "lol. I was a pregnant teen. I wasn't very scared at all. But after having my son I was a bit lost. It makes it really hard now, I'm 23 and part of me is saying "okay you're ready to have children now!" I think it's a "nesting" instinct. I say to myself, "But hey! I already have two children, and I'm in school, and let's not forget I'm not married!" It's somewhat of a disappointment. I want teenager women to know what their options are, and be aware that you are not cursed into a lifestyle of unhappiness.

2.We are a nation of debt. It's just like modern day lifestyles. The more financially stable people do okay, while the poor struggle. Our nation is mirroring exactly what they're trying to solve. How is that suppose to work?

3. Well this could go a lot of directions. But in a broad way of looking at things you could narrow it down to the basics. Respect and trust. I think if there were a law to do both, or if it was embedded into our minds like a switch that goes off, things would be better. You don't hurt someone cause you respect them, you don't cheat cause you trust them, you don't steal cause you respect them, etc... it could go on and on.

4. It depends on the persons' weak spot. To my aunt, it would be the sound of her family hurting. To my boyfriend, it would be guns and bombs and such. To me, it would be the tone in a persons voice when they really hate someone, or children crying from negligence, or any war audio. Esh.. gave me the chills.

5. Well I was thinking that I could start writing on my blogger new random things in a different folder than this. I often have thoughts that don't go away, if I were to get them out and fully express how I feel about it, maybe I wouldn't hold on to the uncertainty so long. Yeah, I think I will. Oh and I didn't watch very many of those videos because they didn't play very well. They would play for a little while then have a 10 second pause and play again. A ten second pause is destructive of my attention span. Within the first 4 seconds of silence I was already thinking about laundry.

Oct 19, 2009

Lpn 6

1. A. Pro's: Gives a variety in America, Allows America to be America in letting people believe their own beliefs and practice their own religion which makes us diverse, and immigration is important in our country in many ways. Con's: Some can argue the fact of crimes associating with different minorities, different cultures causes more controversy in america, some averages have created unfair stereotypes in certain cultures.
2. George: He is gay, his parents are catholic, he has to deal with gay stereotypes of men having HIV/AIDS. He also is worried about the negative views of HIV in general.
Elena: She is minority of muslim, she is younger, she had unprotected sex, she isn't following her religious beliefs, she appears to be depressed.
The Wilsons: They are minority, they are drug users, they have a bias possible against race.
Thomas: He is in a minority group, he is married.
Fred: He is older, his health importance is at risk.

Sep 29, 2009

LP 4 Blog

1. I have been bored a time or two listening to a person. Usually it is either when they are talking about something I have no idea about, or if it's something I've heard many times before.

2. It's completely situational whether I will drift of to space or not. If I become very bored I will end up day dreaming.

3.a. I have never drifted off in this class but I have in another class of mine.
b. I had to mentally wake myself up because I was tired. I knew if my brain was alive I would've been more awake physically.

4. There was a time that I had a friend whom I had dated in the past. We were both ok with just being friends. One day he calls me and says he is getting married. I was stunned because he didn't even talk about having a grilfriend. He later on told me that he was happy now and didn't want to talk to me anymore because it made his wife upset. I was upset at first. But later on I realized I didn't really need him as a friend in my life anymore. If he was going to shut me out like that I wasn't going to be upset about it. I was simply going to keep going in my life as if nothing happened. I was very confused as to what exactly happened. But there wasn't a curiosity strong enough to ever probe into his life again.

5. My aunt and I are best friends. We can talk to each other about anything and know we're going to be listened to. She is a very good listener. Maybe this is because she offers you questions that test what you just said, or how you really feel about what you are talking about. She has a very calming sense about her that makes you feel comfortable talking to her.

6. I don't know my classmates. At all. I think you should have a required assignment of some sort of volunteering. Everyone would meet up. Or even just a "evening of chatting." We all meet, have some snacks, do introductions, and then ask therapeutic, conversational, stress relieving questions. I've noticed a lot of people are stressed out. They just don't know how to relieve it. They're like a balloon, completely full of air, if they have to take anymore they might explode. It's good to be a saggy balloon once in awhile. Well, at least a soft balloon. Besides taht when you are around a balloon that has too much air in it you have to be really careful so that you don't make it explode. Not very fun if you ask me.

7. Thoughts: I'm having a hard time figuring out which field of work I want to go into. I'm a visionary hands on type of person. I need to actually throw myself in there to see if I like it more than the rest. I'd love to volunteer at places just to get a feel for their work. But I have no clue where to start.

Sep 24, 2009

Week 3 Blog Questions

1. My role in the community will be to serve them. There are many who cannot afford certain services in the community and they need to be helped somehow. I want to be part of helping these individuals in the community.
2. I don't think that I would be good at teaching or presenting the educational resources. But I do like handing out fliers and different "advertisment." I'm very friendly and social, I like meeting new people. I think greeting people and doing one on one talk is easier for me.
3. I would be interested in children outreach. Also, working with special needs children and adults. I've always found an interest in special needs and I find it personally rewarding.
4. It's hard for me to remember people without a face to remember. There are some people in my lecture class that have this class as well. But I couldn't put a name with a face. So I don't feel like I'm getting to know most of my classmates. I wish I was more probed to think. I like being stumped. I have a hard time responding to other post. Most people have the same answers each time. It's hard to argue a point when it's the same each time.
5. I could use some organization tips. I'm falling behind instead of being ahead of the game. I'm terrible at routine. So if you have any suggestions...

Sep 15, 2009

Week 2 Blog Questions

1a. I went to many elementary schools growing up. Each one was about the same for me. Some were more personalized than others. The teachers were closer to their students. Other schools did not participate much in the students lives outside of school.

1b.I only went to one high school. There was a guidance counselor and another counselor that helped with classes. Each were very helpful. I felt that some teachers would be more interested in my personal life and want to help. I had tough high school years. I was diagnosed with pancreatitis at 15, got pregnant at 16, and married at 17. Most teachers were very helpful because they knew about my circumstances. In fact, while I was in the hospital one of my teachers had the class send me a get well card. Unfortunately, I was quite out of it and it was from my spanish class. As if reading english while sick isn't hard enough.

1c. When starting I had a very difficult time. I set up an appointment with high hopes with someone in the administration. She basically told me that what I wanted to do, being a single mother and working, was impossible. After much support from my boyfriend he assured me I could do it and pushed me to try to get in again. I did a lot of this process myself not accepting help because of the earlier disappointment. Once in the system I got much more support from other people. I was much happier with that outcome.

1d. Externally I have been motivated by friends and family greatly. This motivation has helped my confidence internally to be confident that I can succeed in school.
1e. I am highly confident that I can succeed as a student. Like others, stress can sometimes bring my confidence down, but I believe this is usually only temporary feelings. For the most part I'm excited and confident in my ability to learn and succeed.

1f. I am happy with my learning ability.

1g.I could probably improve by staying on task more and getting assignments done earlier. Also not letting certain things (such as sickness and children) stop me from finishing needed studying.

2. I learned that our jail facilities are maxed out and overwhelmed. This is something I did not know. I feel this is something that should definitely change. This needs to be an important issue in our government and not be overseen.

3. I received my student loan which will help ease the stress of my financial situation.

4. I have a horrible ear infection and both my kids were sick this week. So I am terribly sorry that I am doing my assignments at 9:59 on Tuesday the day it is due. On a brighter note, I got my laundry done today.

Aug 31, 2009

Chapter 1 Review Questions

1. What is meant by a generalist approach?
A generalist approach means that the human services worker uses a wide variety of resources to help the person in need. They don't just find one problem and one solution. The approach is to find other/many factors to contribute to a solution.

2.Why is eclecticism considered necessary for being an affective human services practitioner?
Because not everyone is successful in each theory of interventions or counseling. One theory may not work for another. Also, sometimes a seemingly obvious solution may not be targeting the actual problem. The client may be in need of other services and resources as well that may help ease the problems the client is going through.

3. What are the differences and similarities between an intern, a volunteer, and an employee?
Some similarities between an intern, volunteer, and an employee are: they are all important and essential to the human services field, they are all learning from their experiences, and all their intentions of helping people are the same.
Some of the differences are: a volunteer does not get paid for their contributions, sometimes an intern does and an employee always gets paid. A volunteer may have more experience and knowledge than a intern or an employee, and may not. Employee's obviously get benefits where as an intern and volunteer do not. An intern is in the process of learning where as a volunteer may or may not be and an employee has "finished" their schooling.

4. Name two appropriate reasons to work in human services.
One appropriate reason to work in the human services field is having the aptitude for the skills needed. Human services is an ideal choice of a career if you have the necessary skills and passion for helping people. Someone who likes to be challenged in their career and enjoys expanding their knowledge consistently would also be ideal candidates for working in human services.

5. Name two inappropriate reasons to work in human services.
An inappropriate reason to work in human services is the idea that it will be an easy degree that will make you much money. Another inappropriate reason would be someone who wants personal self fulfillment from the need of the clients. Trying to make themselves feel better by the thought that another needs their help.

I have learned how to use blackboard. It is very helpful.
I was able to confirm in the few short days of class that this is definitely the career I'd like to go into.

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Hi my name is Sam I started this blog thingy for my class at NTC. I don't know what I would use for it otherwise. So...HI